He Got Me

I met my future in laws for the first time, and I'm honestly over the moon. Albeit it was Maga country, they were nothing but kind and sweet. I saw such an abundance of love they had for each other... And the fact that they've had the same house for... Their entire life. I am kinda jealous of that. 

My family and childhood was othering and sprawling out with moving around a lot and separation... My whole family pretends we had this perfect childhood and whenever we bring it up, we are the ones being dramatic or the tyrannical stepmother says passive shit like "I don't remember that." ...how convenient for her that she doesn't recall all the outbursts and us "getting into trouble" whenever we were ourselves... But we were "outside of our gender roles," as it were.... 

I liked American muscle cars and my sister never really wanted to wear dresses as a kid... 

We were constantly fought with or yelled at to be something we weren't. 

At the family home of my B, I saw what he looked like as a kid. How much I would've felt othered if I were him, but he was accepted no matter what. He is part of his family. I know he misses them a lot and feels torn not visiting more... City life is really fun, but I am getting tired of it, kinda... I want to settle down, but our millennialisms are getting rather bothersome. 

I've moved around probably about 3x more, than my average cohort... So, it would feel really great if we could settle down in a place to call home together... But then I still love my job. It's becoming a career, and I have a significant, although background, hand in its growth... We were pretty supplied all throughout the holiday season. We sold out of stuff by the end of it, which was unusual... But great!! 

We are a good and effective team. I'm pretty happy with how everything went. I could tell the founders were pretty stressed at the end, but we all made it through. 

...growing up, I had never really felt like I was part of a team at all. It wasn't until I was truly valued by what limited skills I have cultivated and am really good at... And I am appreciated and valued. 

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I don't want kids of our own, but I'd like to be a place where our collective Nibblings can be dropped off for a designated night or two for a break from parenthood. I like the aunt role. 

But I don't want to live with a screaming baby or constant poop and other bodily functions of another being besides my significant other. 

I am in the first healthy, mature, and MUTUAL romantic relationship ever... And hopefully my last kiss. We are a good, supportive team. And of encountering certain family that aren't happy... Well, we have examples of what not to be like... 

I know he has my back and doesn't speak ill of me to others. In fact, he brags that he brags about me... Squeeeeeee.... And he got me the COOLEST piece of jewelry for Christmas... 

I'm Snow, right? He got me a necklace of a preserved snowflake from the arctic. Like, WOW. He also got me a TARDIS throw blanket, too. I am over the moon with how much he sees me and values me. 

We are bluntly obsessed with one another and I am very taken by him. It emboldened me to even have a short smalltalk with a former crush at the market. I wish them the best. They were planning a small friends get together with his GF and found family. That sounds very lovely. I hope they had fun. 

...B got a T-shirt from me of Godzilla, but it was tropical in design. Not a Hawaiian shirt... But a black T-shirt with a bright design. Very him, I think. 

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In the new year, we are planning to live together and help better ourselves for the other. Somewhere in there will be a wedding... But I think I've found my favorite human for the long haul of life. He is a big ogre of a man with a big heart and even bigger imagination. He has a bit of trauma like everyone else out age, but we filter it into humor and jokes. This is just one big Yes, And bit... 

I can't forget to hang out with other friends, but I really only have the capacity for one person for now. 

I want to marry and live with my best friend forever... Money will flow in and out... But choosing to love another even though they toot next to you in bed... That's true love. 

I hope to never passively aggressively hold contempt and resentment at him ever, unlike my BIL... 

That brunch was so awkward. My BIK makes his emotions everyone else's problem to deal with and it was very annoying how he undermined and belittled my sister. 

They must fight constantly, especially in front of their kids. That must be hard for them. 

As an Aunt and Funcle, I want to supply a safe haven for my godson and my nibblings in general. And that includes his nibblings. 

I want optional children. Lol

I want B all to myself, most times... Lol. But that's what I want in life. I am tired at the end of my days. I don't want to care for anyone else but me and my husband... I want to be an entertainer... But moreso a comedian and a writer. He's the actor. 

We are both charismatic introverted Neurodivergents with ADHD. We have x number of spoons per social event... He always checks in... We support each other so well. ❤️‍🩹 

I am sure Wendy sent me B. 

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Snow.