The St. Louis Snow

May 23rd, 6am Going to have breakfast with my father this morning. Thanks to my therapist, I have walls built and a set of words I can use when I'm flabbergasted at the things he feels comfortable to say outside of his mind... I don't want to nervously laugh. I don't want to fawn over him and his stories... He now centers every perspective around the importance of marriage... Like somehow unmarried people were unclean ...*are*.… unclean. Like he's relieved that I'm finally ready to progress my life.  I'm so angry at my dad for having the audacity of not being a better masculine energy in my life, especially when I needed him most...  He was taught to serve his spouse no matter what. She wants to feel superior and in control? Sure, let her yell incessantly at your children. That'll model for who they are supposed to be in a relationship: a bully. And will be why they hate themselves when they yell... I would have never yelled at a child for any reason other t...

Mother's Day 💐: As I lay here tangled in the appendages of my loved one... I thank the universe everyday for sending me him. I thank Goddess🐢Wendy, for sending me him. B's mama did an amazing job of raising such a kind, intelligent, and gentle man. I sent her some chocolates and the exact gratitude she was owed...  ... This is my first mother's day with B. I've yet to really establish a good routine to celebrate. I always request it off from work. They always oblige. ... I have struggled in the past with connecting with people or being clearly seen by a counterpart. With mutual respect and the knowledge that he is also as emotionally intelligent as I am, he is at the same serious level of life. And he wants to propel us forward. I want to progress forward with one best friend... Build towards a purpose and creative projects...  He understands that neither of us is a perfect human being but we are perfectly patient with each other which is, apparently, bare minimum.......