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I have often wondered what we would've learned from the journal entries of the great minds of literature in the last few centuries if they had been made public for society to consume.
What were their lives like? What were they worried about?
Comedy is modern philosophy. What a time to be alive...
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The threats in the current society are AI, WWIII, war in general, and white nationalists. It's a frozen cold war, purely waged online. The algorithms are owned by white nationalists and are pushing christian ideals really hard. ... Doctor Who even made the implication of Jesus canon to its metaverse...
The powers-that-be have divided us lowly peasants to fight among ourselves. But what if we did stand up together? What if we could lock arms and fight?
We came together and nixed the idea of remaking The Princess Bride. Why can't we come together on other things in reality like basic human rights?
If you want more safe spaces, you must invite and welcome new standards of kindness and gratitude. What that looks like... In a world where we can be direct, also be kind.
I am a beautiful autistic woman figuring myself out for the first time in 35 years. I am lucky enough to LOVE my job ... It pays shit, but it sets a new standard of how to treat people. Their business practices match how they treat people day to day. I don't value making money, I value how I treat others and the standards of those around me. How we give back to the world and how we treat our employees is awesome! And sometimes all someone needs is a kind place to work.
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We have had bad employees before... They were ok, and worked well enough... But they were mean to me for some reason? It was very strange because I never understood why they would make fun or exclude a person who had multiple years in a growing small, local business annnnd who has the ear of the boss? I'm autistic, you dinks. I notice human behavior real well ... It's interesting to me that they think their rebellion or meanness would get past me... I will protect my people from unkindness.
It's an askewed viewpoint, ig we're supposed to value family? And home life? But I love where I work. I feel safe enough there to unmask and be myself.
Not sure what I'd do if I didn't have a job, let alone a routine of spending time with coworkers. The production manager is like everyone's work-uncle... He wants to be a work-stepdad... But it's not the same energy. He exudes sibling energy. He's my superior and supervisor, but he can't hide his emotions that well ... I just don't take them that personally anymore.
People have bad days, sometimes. That's ok.
The FOH Manager is very understanding, and is incredibly kind. And very funny!! I didn't think I'd have so many great people I could emulate, but I'm glad he's one of them. He is ND, too. And is a badass. He has changed physically so much and I'm very proud of him.
Production manager locks his knees backwards... He over extends his ACL and other tendons and muscles ... His legs and back must hurt a lot! Not to mention the troubles he'll have as he gets older.
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I wish I had a network of reliable friends to call when I have an emotional issue or ask for help without so much shame attached, or a sexual favor is expected.
I feel like sometimes I say or do things that make others not want to talk to me... I can never read that cue... Mostly because I've left that insecurity behind.
In order to function better day to day, I have to have the belief that I am welcomed everywhere. It is exhausting trying to be something I'm not... I am not unwelcomed. If someone has an issue with you, they will lyk. Or they won't, but that's their issue.
If a mediocre white man wouldn't have an issue waltzing in somewhere, then I shouldn't either. I assume others operate on this notion, but I understand at a certain level, people get tired and stuck. Either around others that are like them so they feel comfortable? Or maybe it doesn't bother others and they're just happy being themselves? Does everyone else have their shit together, except me?
Sometimes I enter rooms, and the whole energy shifts... Are people mad that I ruined the space? Are they on edge because I am an intense person?
My coworkers set examples for me a lot, as far as human standards of expectations and respect ... And I try to uphold the same standards. Gratitude. Positivity. Community centered. But I do not enjoy misinformation and loud noises when I'm trying to work with customers.
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Now that I'm an out-&-proud queer woman, I want to be doing more for my community. I want to be bettering myself... But I'm unsure how to ask for help from others... How do you get past the shame of asking for help for daily tasks?
I had had a routine when I lived with the ex... It was an alright routine. Not a good place or partner... But the morning routine was alright.
I think I struggle with defining my life. How do I function on a day to day basis? How do I eat safely but still jazz it up with new things? How do I get stuff done that I want done? How do I motivate myself?
I'm not sure if I could live with a guy again, but I get along with other women folk who are also awesome, and emotionally secure. But I cannot live in a minimalist aesthetic. My roommate is very kind, but I cannot leave stuff out that I need to remind myself of things ... The dog will consume. He's a good boi, but he's also a beast. Dogs and children are always forgiven. They cannot retain your standards of ethics... The human children will learn with time and grace... Dogs stay about 4 years old forever. For example, Chip is a gymrat himbo goodest boi... He's a pitty mix and his first humans were not good humans. He's very anxious and not good with a lot of people.
And my roomie doesn't like clutter... So things get put away too soon and I forget to eat. Or I forget something else.
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I am actually the only one who can define who and what I am... I choose to be kind and understanding, because I can feel others accommodating me whenever I mess up. And I've messed up A LOT. But I still have a job. I never messed up on purpose... Heck, I'm the top buyer because I cannot steal.
I've stolen from a job before and had to pay back it, tenfold... Now that's shame. But it wasn't a small business place... So in the long run, I'm ok. I lived and I learned ;)
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I think I'll see a comedy show tonight. Dad's Garage is an excellent establishment and should be fueled with and by its community... Support the arts!
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Snow.
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