Demeaning of It All (poem)

*context, trying to empathize with the ex and from his perspective*

I saved her from the edge

When she had no one

But I couldn't keep saving her

Because I had to save myself

I wanted so much for her to win

I set up her goals for her life

For a life with me that she said she wanted

I set up the trials I needed her to achieve in order to be with me

For me to be happy

For me to be willing to do the things she liked to do

To show her that was loved, correctly

I dangled romance in front of her

As the motivation she needed

I'm not sure why it never worked

But I kept at it, never asking

Never listening to her while she had said things, vented

Fix fix fix fix fix

That's all she wanted me for 

I never asked for clarification

But I had always expected it

She kept looking at me to save her

I kept leading us into the next day

But never to obtain new measures

Never asking for input or direction

I never believed in what she could already do

I never believed in her abilities to lead

At a certain point she saw the truth

She needed to save herself from me

From the power I thought I had had 

Over her. She was over me

I haven't a clue how to motivate myself 

Because I keep playing the devil 

Instead of a great belief

She had faith in me to do well

Not sure why it never worked

I never propelled forward with her

She left without me