The St. Louis Snow

How would one start the life they've always wanted?  Sometimes, my boss says I'm being assertive when I think I'm being a bitch. She's a very lovely, respectful and respected woman.  But I am not aware of the power within myself and what I could really do with my influence. I tend to share my opinions and then others run with them as facts, and that's never my intention. I never feel very good gossiping about others... I can't do that, honestly. I tend to point out their insecurities... I just don't, now.  I like to surround myself with such individuals who possess and aspire to obtain facets of characteristics that I admire... Integrity. Humility. And I guess equality.  I don't like myself when I'm angry or frustrated... I don't like myself when I yell obscenities... I don't like to be kept in the dark, intentionally... I can recognize true kindness because I have had DECADES of discerning between someone being nice, and someone being kind.....

How would I say words that everyone will be alright with?  Everyone wears clothes... I express myself everyday... That is my art; fashion. It has to be functional throughout the day but still me... Like, my space hat I wear whenever I'm working at the factory. Word to the wise, if you wear space as a pattern... You're autistic.  Sorry not sorry.  Everyone has a style. Either it's the same three pieces of clothing or you switch it up ... My limit of recording history (through a blogging narrative, but still...) on the correct, poorer side...is my fashion. I can really tell through how people carry themselves whether or not they like their insides or not... By how they present themselves to the world...  Ever since I learned of the origin of the punk style, back in the 80s and why...  It was incredibly modern for its time. Fashion is about shame and statements one individual can visibly, tangibly convey to society...  My style is nerdy chic, comfortable modes...

I like to think I have good friends... I see bits of the parts I like and love parts of which I'd call admirable in others...not everyone sees them so clearly.  I like to have the limelight when I'm on stage... But keep my humility in check, when off. It's important to have friends who will check you, in real time. What I like to be or participate in when I'm off the clock is quite underrated... I don't like loud sudden noises. I like quietness... But I also like to have conversations with good people. I like to be fed well, and provide company in kind. I'll gladly do the dishes if you cook... But I'm pretty selective with who sees what part of me, when. Can I let this person in all the way? When will I be too much? When will he tell me to stop being me for the sake of others'? If I could be my true unmasked self, I'd probably be way more naked. Lol. Right? To be so physically vulnerable is the right to one person in my life, entirely... The bits of ...