The St. Louis Snow

/s.  I love how my roommate owns this house and feels comfortable in her life to enjoy all of its offerings... It's a comfortable enough spot... It's a great house.  But I rent a room. It's not home. I miss living with a dog. I don't really like her, just her. She's made comments about how I live my life and my habits of sleeping a lot. I am exhausted most of the time. Idk how I'm supposed to go out and socialize when I barely have any money. So I stay in.  I liked going to the grocery store, but I like going to Kroger. Not Lidl....  She gets up in the morning and does yoga. Healthy person stuff. It's her house. But I look forward to having the morning to myself in this small house.  She's made comments like cleaning the bathroom, "it only takes 5 seconds" ... I didn't know how to verbalize it in the moment, but it was so stupid and ableist. I have to think about every fucking step before I do it. It's fucking exhausting. But sure, it o...

Someday, a life-long dream of mine is to be apart of DW, the show. I would love to personally meet at least one Doctor, if not River.  I find a special interest and get hyperfocused. I find it very hard to focus on one objective at a time. How do I get from A to B when there are a plethora of their steps to accomplish, first? Not to mention, making decisions of what to eat, everyday...  I have big massive worries looming overhead and then I have day to day issues...one anxiety is thinking I possibly have scurvy, so I drink cranberry juice and eat salmon, and eggs, and cheese, and cucumbers, and hot sauce. And hummus. So much hummus. I'm unsure if I'm anemic or malnourished. What vitamins do I take and when? What's the good routine to maintain my every thought in life? What should I be doing to maintaining my life? Another decision to be made.  I love how there are people in this world who have the audacity of having an opinion of how I need to be coping or need to be doin...